Laughing to not be Embarrassed

Hello readers,

Today I am going to tell a little story, it is about myself (DUH! You know me) and what happened when I went to get my GED and what went down and about some thing all fat people try to do to defuse a embarrassing moment.

Ok we (GED Test takers) had to up at the school at 8:30am. So I got there around 8:10am so that I could get a seat at the table cause there was only 4 seats at tables. I assumed that a desk would be to small for me. There I was sitting there and I was waiting along with everybody else and the Instructor came out and told us to sign in and get our drivers licences out. The she proceeded to tell us that we had assigned seats. I felt my heart sink because I knew the desk was to smell for me. I had been there a week before to registers and saw the desk. So there I was about to have a heart attack because I knew the desk was going to be to small and I was hoping so much I would be seated at the table by some Divine providence. I get closer and closer to the Instructor and then.....

I got a seat in the back where the tables are as I was lookin at my number and trying to find my seat I realized a desk. I was so sad and I almost threw up because now I had to ask because I could not fit in the desk. Well there was a few folks in the classroom by then. I had to try to make light of it. So I casually said "There aint no way I can sit my fat butt in the little desk, I ought to sue for discrimination" They all laughed but inside I was about to die. I was so ticked off. Not at them but at myself. Why am I like this I asked myself. Well anyways The other instructor came and had to make a way to switch me around with someone. Well that made it a bigger deal cause I had to stand up in class waiting for her to get done. So now everybody that was coming in and seeing me standing there. In there minds I could hear fat sucker cant sit in a desk and I but he losses weight no. Now I am unsure how many if anyone thought this. But In mind I knew they were saying it. It was horrible. Well I sat there at my seat at the table and I almost cried from the stress I just went through.

Now with all that being said here is the question part of all this.
How does it make you feel when you are embarrassed and what do you do to try to defuse it? I know when going out to eat I always have to ask to sit at tables because because the darn booths and there tables are bolted in. I almost dont go places because I am scared of this happening.

Now those of you that know me real well know I am not scared of much but this is the one thing I am. I am ashamed to say so but it must be told because it is part of the story. I will fight you I will do what I have to but my weight is the one thing I am afraid of.

So that is it for now. I will see yall soon.

This is Duke and I am signin out.

Peace, Love and all that Jazz