Hello Yall,
Self Confidence..... Why is it so hard to come by. I mean to say I am a very big guy so of course mine is very low, Yet there are people that are way smaller than myself that... well have no Self Confidence either. I am baffled at how smaller than me guys have such a hard time with this. I know from experience that when I lose weight like 50lbs or more my Self Confidence goes up a good bit. That is not to say that I am some super Self Confident man it is just to say that guys that look good need to step it up.
Now I know you are wondering "What Brought This On"
Well to be honest lots of thing did, First I am single and have been since I was a teen. Second I was takin a bath today (Bad shoulder it need heat) and the tub has mirrors all around it and so needless to say I could see myself...... I could see myself alot and to be quite honest I was about to start crying. I am being real with you guys and gals. I all of the sudden got so depressed that it was sad. I hate myself. Not The person Duke but the physical Duke. I am losing weight at this moment but I am finding it so hard to stay focused because of the way I look. Self Confidence=0 in my live I may even be Neg.
Now I think that bring this big and looking the way I do has a huge.... (dang you PUN.) affect on me never talking to girls and is the core reason I am still single. I hate me so how could anyone love me?
Ofter time I am thinking to myself "what do my friends think of me" and I am sure on the surface they dont think about it but deep down they might resent me. Not that they would ever say this to my face because I am still a force to be reckoned with. But inside what do they say.Well that is all for now I will leave it to you to ponder what I have said.
This was me poring out my soul and this was Duke on "The Way I Think"
Peace and have a good one.
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